
Dead Inside
Categories
Fiction, Horror, Romance, Thriller, Adult, Novella, Dark Romance, Dark, Horror Thriller, Splatterpunk
Content Type
Book
Binding
Paperback
Year
2014
Publisher
Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
Language
English
ISBN13
9781512036084
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Dead Inside Plot Summary
Introduction
In the sterile corridors of Preston Druse Charity Hospital, death whispers its secrets to those willing to listen. Our narrator, a night security guard with hollow eyes and darker appetites, moves through shadows like a ghost haunting his own existence. His world revolves around the basement morgue, where cold flesh awaits his twisted devotion. But when Dr. Helen Winchester, a beautiful pediatric physician with her own unspeakable hungers, crosses his path in the most compromising of circumstances, two monsters recognize each other in the darkness. What begins as mutual blackmail evolves into something far more dangerous—a connection between the living and the dead, between those who feast on innocence and those who make love to corpses. In a tale that pushes beyond the boundaries of human decency, two souls discover that sometimes the most profound relationships bloom in the deepest shadows, where normal rules cease to exist and only the darkest desires remain.
Chapter 1: The Necrophile's Confession: A Night Guard's Secret Life
The hospital transforms at night into something altogether different from its daytime facade. While television portrays medical facilities as hives of constant activity, Preston Druse Charity Hospital settles into whispered conversations and the mechanical breathing of life support machines. The night shift belongs to ghosts—both literal and metaphorical. Our narrator moves through these corridors like vapor, barely noticed by the skeletal night staff. His official duties as security guard require little more than periodic rounds and monitor watching, but his true calling lies three floors below in the morgue's cold embrace. For three years, he has cultivated this double existence: the forgettable guard upstairs and the passionate lover of the dead below. The routine never varies. First, the careful surveillance of the hospital's rhythms, learning which rooms hold the dying and when their final breaths might come. Then the descent to the basement, where steel tables hold his potential companions. Tonight, like so many others, he feels that familiar pull toward the morgue, drawn by an olfactory promise that sets his pulse racing. The smell of impending death guides him to Room 13B, where Abigail M. Terpentine lies broken from a boat accident. Her bandaged head and missing limbs tell a story of violence that most would find horrifying, but our narrator sees only beauty in her approaching transformation. As he whispers to her unconscious form, predicting her swift journey from the world of the living to his domain below, anticipation builds like pressure in his chest. When morning comes, he knows she will be waiting for him in the cold basement, perfect in her stillness, ready to receive the kind of love that only the dead can truly provide.
Chapter 2: Kindred Spirits in Darkness: The Doctor Who Consumes Innocence
The night that changes everything arrives with screaming chaos in the maternity ward. A violent father, driven mad by grief over his stillborn child, turns the birthing room into a slaughterhouse before taking his own life. But while others focus on the horror of murder-suicide, our narrator's attention fixes on Dr. Helen Winchester, standing motionless in the corner with an expression of hunger directed at the dead infant. Her eyes hold the same hollow quality that he recognizes in his own reflection—the look of someone whose appetites exist far outside normal human boundaries. Those ice-blue eyes behind thick glasses seem to catalog the small corpse with the intensity of a predator sizing up prey, and something electric passes between them in that blood-soaked room. Days later, following her through security monitors, he tracks her descent to the basement morgue. What he discovers there defies even his own twisted expectations: Dr. Helen Winchester, naked on a white sheet, methodically consuming the flesh of a dead infant with the reverence of communion. The scene should revolt him, but instead it awakens something like recognition, even kinship. When confronted, Helen's reaction surprises him. Instead of shame or panic, she displays a clinical calmness that matches his own emotional flatness. Her explanation comes matter-of-factly—this is what she desires, what she has always desired since childhood trauma involving a pet ferret and a devoured baby brother. She eats only dead infants, preferring the tender flesh to any conventional meal. Their first conversation stretches into the early morning hours, two monsters discovering they are not alone in the world. Helen's pharmaceutical-dulled eyes and his own hollow stare create a perfect symmetry of emptiness, while her confession about midnight raids on abortion clinics reveals a methodical approach to feeding that mirrors his own careful cultivation of morgue relationships.
Chapter 3: Breaking Boundaries: When Death No Longer Satisfies
The relationship between predator and cannibal evolves with surprising tenderness. Helen begins visiting his security office nightly, sharing her drug-hazed dreams and philosophical musings about their shared darkness. Her Vicodin-clouded eyes fascinate him more than any corpse ever has, and for the first time, he finds himself capable of conversation with a living person. Her stories reveal the full scope of her appetites—how she began eating babies at thirteen after finding an abandoned corpse in the woods, how medical school provided fresh opportunities for her cannibalistic desires. She describes the texture and taste with the passion of a gourmand, while he finds himself reciprocating with details of his own necrophilic encounters. The dynamic shifts when Helen suggests something unprecedented: dinner together in the real world. Despite every instinct screaming against human contact, he agrees to take her to an upscale restaurant. The evening unfolds with surprising success, her morbid conversation topics about suicide methods and death oddly comforting in their darkness. But when she invites him inside her Villa Vida home afterward, boundaries begin dissolving in ways that terrify him. Her kiss tastes of wine and desperation, and for one horrifying moment, he responds with genuine arousal to a living woman. The warmth of her skin and the beating of her heart should repel him, but instead they draw him deeper into forbidden territory. Panic overtakes him at the crucial moment. He flees into the night, leaving her half-naked and confused, masturbating frantically on her driveway like an animal marking territory. The shame of his arousal mingles with relief at his escape, but the damage is done—Helen Winchester has awakened something in him that threatens everything he thought he understood about himself.
Chapter 4: The Unwanted Creation: A Life Growing Between Two Monsters
Helen's absence from his nightly routine stretches for weeks, leaving him to wonder if their interrupted encounter has driven her away permanently. When she finally returns to his office, the change in her appearance hits him like a physical blow—the subtle swell of early pregnancy unmistakable to his trained eye. Her confession confirms his worst fears: she carries his child, conceived during their single encounter at the abortion clinic where she had taken him to watch her feed. The irony is not lost on either of them—two creatures who traffic in death have created life, and neither knows how to process this cosmic joke. His immediate reaction is denial, then desperate bargaining. He pleads with her to abort the pregnancy, unable to comprehend how someone who devours infants could possibly want to birth one. But Helen has changed during their separation, her pharmaceutical haze giving way to a maternal protectiveness that seems to war with her cannibalistic nature. She speaks of raising their child to be different, special like them, freed from the constraints of normal society. Her dreams have evolved from consuming babies to nurturing one, though she admits the contradiction puzzles even her. The transformation frightens him more than her original appetite—at least cannibalism followed a comprehensible logic, but motherhood seems to defy everything he thought he knew about her. As weeks pass, he watches her body change through security monitors, avoiding direct contact while obsessing over the growing life within her. The sight of nurses touching her belly with congratulatory warmth makes him physically ill, a reminder that their dark union has produced something that others view as blessed rather than cursed.
Chapter 5: Blood Ritual: The Final Feast and Consummation
The phone call comes in the depths of winter, Helen's voice barely a whisper through the static: "She's dead. She's dead inside me." The words should bring relief, but instead they carry an undertone of desperation that draws him away from his post to her darkened house in Villa Vida. He finds her as he first encountered her—naked on a white sheet, but this time the ritual has taken on dimensions of religious sacrifice. Her swollen belly bears the evidence of her condition, while empty pill bottles and a surgical scalpel suggest the ceremony she has planned. Her eyes hold that familiar pharmaceutical distance, but underneath lurks something approaching madness. She explains with dreamy logic: the baby died inside her, and like all dead infants, it calls to her appetite. The poetic nature of consuming her own child appeals to her aesthetic sensibilities, the ultimate expression of her cannibalistic identity. When he protests, she reminds him of Edgar Allan Poe's words about the beauty in a lovely woman's death. What follows transcends even his experience with morgue encounters. Helen's self-performed cesarean becomes a grotesque communion as she extracts their dead daughter and begins to feed. Her simultaneous masturbation transforms the act into something that blurs the line between maternal love and sexual gratification, while her approaching death from blood loss adds urgency to every movement. He finds himself aroused by the spectacle in ways that surprise even him. When she finally succumbs to blood loss, her body still warm but officially dead, he claims her with a violence that surprises them both. The encounter becomes his masterpiece of necrophilic expression, enhanced by the lingering traces of their child's flesh on her lips and the maternal changes in her body. But their private ritual is interrupted by the sound of a car in the driveway—Helen's husband returning from another business trip, flowers in hand and expecting the domestic bliss that his unknown rival had helped him achieve months earlier through drunken bar conversation.
Chapter 6: The Reckoning: When Normal Life Shatters the Darkness
The collision between his shadow world and normal society arrives with the sound of a key in the front door. Helen's husband, the traveling businessman whose marriage he had inadvertently saved with advice about buying flowers, calls out domestic pleasantries while ascending the stairs toward a scene that will shatter his conception of reality. Our narrator sits calmly smoking in the aftermath of his greatest sexual triumph, Helen's ravaged corpse still warm between his legs, their consumed daughter's remains scattered across the blood-soaked sheet. The approaching footsteps create a countdown to discovery that he observes with detached curiosity rather than panic. The moment crystallizes everything about his existence—how his attempts to remain invisible in the world have failed, how his brief connection with Helen has drawn him into the lives of normal people in ways he never intended. The businessman's flowers, purchased on advice from a stranger in a bar, led to reconciliation, conception, and now this moment of ultimate revelation. As the footsteps reach the top of the stairs, he reflects on the chain of causation that brought him here: his advice to a drunk stranger, that man's reconciliation with his wife, their subsequent pregnancy and his own parallel situation with Helen. The cosmic irony of it all—two creatures dedicated to death creating life, only to have that life become their final meal—strikes him as almost poetically just. The door handle turns, and normal life prepares to confront the monsters who have been hiding in its shadows. But our narrator feels no fear, only a kind of satisfied completion. He has achieved the perfect expression of his nature, consummated his relationship with death in the most literal way possible, and now awaits whatever consequences the living world might impose.
Summary
In this tale of profound darkness, two monsters discover that love can exist even in the deepest shadows of human behavior. The necrophile security guard and the cannibalistic doctor find in each other a recognition of shared darkness that transcends normal human connection. Their brief union produces both literal and metaphorical offspring—a dead child who becomes their final communion and a relationship that transforms them both in unexpected ways. The story's power lies not in its shocking content but in its unflinching examination of how those who exist outside society's boundaries might find solace in each other. Helen and the narrator represent the ultimate outsiders, creatures whose appetites place them beyond redemption yet who discover genuine connection in their mutual monstrosity. Their tragedy is not that they are evil, but that they are alone—until they find each other, and then lose each other to the very nature that brought them together. The final scene, with normal life about to intrude on their dark paradise, suggests that some loves are too profound and terrible to exist in the ordinary world, destined to burn brightly and consume themselves in their own intensity.
Best Quote
“The living are dangerous. They inflict pain. They're so fueled by greed, a lust for useless material shit, a smoldering desire to fit in ... and they'll hurt and betray and destroy whomever they must in order to get anywhere close to all of it. None of them are any different.” ― Chandler Morrison, Dead Inside
Review Summary
Strengths: The review highlights the book's effective use of dark humor, noting that the author successfully delivers extremely dark comedic elements amidst the graphic content. Weaknesses: The review criticizes the book for its disturbing, vile, and grotesque nature, suggesting it is not suitable for a wide audience. The protagonist is described as extremely annoying, and the writing style did not appeal to the reviewer. The book's reliance on shock value is seen as excessive, and the narrative is compared unfavorably to works like "American Psycho" and "Exquisite Corpse." Overall: The reader expresses a strong negative sentiment, finding the book unsettling and not enjoyable. It is not recommended for most readers, and the reviewer would not choose to read it again.
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